The Weight of Everything

I am drowning in things I once loved.

I’ve built too much. Ventures, open-source projects, brands. I’ve collected them all until the weight became unbearable. I’m not sure if this is burnout, but it is certainly a haunting kind of overwhelm. Every project I keep on life support feels like a shadow following me, demanding energy I no longer have.

There is a specific heaviness in maintaining for “obligation” what I once built for “fun.” It has drained the joy from the work. For a long time, I tied my identity so tightly to my creations that abandoning a project felt like amputating a part of myself. I feared that to let go was to lose, but I’ve realized I’m already lost.

I am finally learning that I am the creator, not the creation.

Why did I build so much? Because I couldn’t say no. I chose everything because I was afraid to take responsibility for choosing just one thing. I used “more” as a shield to avoid the risk of being “just one thing.”

But it’s time for a change.

I am releasing the open-source projects I no longer enjoy. I won’t archive them, but I am stripping them from my identity. I am closing all ventures except Philosophors, and even then, I am dissolving its sub-brands to focus on its core. From now on, I will only be present on my personal page and the main Philosophors account.

I even stripped this website. The “About” page is gone. The project listings are gone. The pressure to define exactly who I am was becoming a cage, and I’ve decided to let myself out.

I want to follow my curiosity into generative AI without the debt of “forever.” I’m not starting with a blank slate; I’m just clearing the crowded parts of my canvas.

To those I’ve disappointed: I am wholeheartedly sorry. Your support has been my world, but I must make room for the future.

At the end of the day, letting go is the essential art of life.